Wasted Teen.

Guess what? I've taken a look in my song library and i have enough songs to create an album! I'm still working on the melodies and beats but i'll be recording them soon i guess. Yeah dur, i'm not like an official artist so they're probably not in hq unless i'm buying a new hq microphone. I really want to promote it when it's finished and i do my best to create the most beautiful songs.

You're probably wondering: what the hell, a 16 year old girl is trying to make an album, that's gonna be shit. Well, all the songs are autobiographical and some are very emotional to me. I don't know how they will be towards others. Everything happened in 2015, it was such a messy year but i got through it, thankfully.

The album will be called 'Wasted Teen'. It's about me having a really tough year. Almost every song is sad, but it describes how i felt and honestly i think people should know about it.

If you want to see the tracklist:

I go by the name Stefani. Why do i want to go under another name? It's my 'artist name'. But why not? I mean, so many people are changing it and i really like this name.

Sooooo... this is all i wanted to tell.

x D (or should i say x F ?)

My music experiences.

Since i was 5/6 years old, i was involved with music. I always enjoyed making music. I can't remember a day when i didn't enjoy it. People were always interested in me as a musical person. They saw a future in me as an artist. But.. i'm not really sure of it anymore. I think other people are worth being signed by a major record label more than myself, although i know my experiences with music are very high. 

Unfortunately, people told me to keep it real and stop trying to get a career in the music industry. But i won't stop trying because i worked way too hard for it. I sing, dance, played the flute in the past, played the saxophone in the past, i play piano, i write songs and i play guitar. What else do i have to do to be good? I just don't want to stop because music is my life. 

I've been really practising alot since 2014. I've become better and better. I (mostly) stay hours in my room to improve my vocals and my piano playing. I have no problems with staying in my room for hours though. I also have to make it work with my sport; playing soccer. Sometimes it exhausts me alot (it's so much less than before) but i'll never give up.

Well that was all i wanted to say.

x D❤️

People.

Hi everyone!
I'm back on this blog i guess and i want to post again. 
But it's a long time ago though! 
I know, i call 2 months a long time ago.

Sometimes, i'm just thinking. Thinking about how i would end up if i lost everything around me. Would i be sad? Probably. I'd feel really guilty for losing people in my life. I know i never drop people in my life, mostly people drop me but still, it hurts. I always give 100% love to my friends and what do they give back? Maybe 20%. It makes me feel like i'm not good enough. I also can't believe there's so much drama in a friendship. Friends are supposed to help you, not to bring you down in every possible way. I'd never bring specific people down because i know they're very important to me.
I'd feel very lonely if i couldn't talk to my friends or someone else. I'm a person who used to be strong when i was alone but it's not like that at the moment. People can treat you like shit and i've definitely felt that. Slowly, i was dying because i thought no one cared but maybe they did, never told me anything about it. But you know what.. it's going very well now and i'm finally socializing (i've seen the light or a wonder has appeared, i don't know what the heck happened). I've never really socialized, i'm a very shy and anxious person and yes, it's not always fun but i think i've changed. At least, it feels like i've changed and i'm proud of it. I just needed a change and i'm glad it happened. In my opinion, the teenage years are the hardest years in your life. I cared way too much about other's opinions and stuff like that. I honestly got in that negative circle because of that. But what's the point of complaining about it? Exactly, there's no point to be in a negative circle. I just need to care about my own opinions, not about theirs because some people can be harsh and can offend me in a really bad way. I really hate it when people are saying things about me what isn't true at all. But i bet some will feel it later in their life's cuz Karma is a bitch.

x D