People.

Hi everyone!
I'm back on this blog i guess and i want to post again. 
But it's a long time ago though! 
I know, i call 2 months a long time ago.

Sometimes, i'm just thinking. Thinking about how i would end up if i lost everything around me. Would i be sad? Probably. I'd feel really guilty for losing people in my life. I know i never drop people in my life, mostly people drop me but still, it hurts. I always give 100% love to my friends and what do they give back? Maybe 20%. It makes me feel like i'm not good enough. I also can't believe there's so much drama in a friendship. Friends are supposed to help you, not to bring you down in every possible way. I'd never bring specific people down because i know they're very important to me.
I'd feel very lonely if i couldn't talk to my friends or someone else. I'm a person who used to be strong when i was alone but it's not like that at the moment. People can treat you like shit and i've definitely felt that. Slowly, i was dying because i thought no one cared but maybe they did, never told me anything about it. But you know what.. it's going very well now and i'm finally socializing (i've seen the light or a wonder has appeared, i don't know what the heck happened). I've never really socialized, i'm a very shy and anxious person and yes, it's not always fun but i think i've changed. At least, it feels like i've changed and i'm proud of it. I just needed a change and i'm glad it happened. In my opinion, the teenage years are the hardest years in your life. I cared way too much about other's opinions and stuff like that. I honestly got in that negative circle because of that. But what's the point of complaining about it? Exactly, there's no point to be in a negative circle. I just need to care about my own opinions, not about theirs because some people can be harsh and can offend me in a really bad way. I really hate it when people are saying things about me what isn't true at all. But i bet some will feel it later in their life's cuz Karma is a bitch.

x D